This past year

The year is almost finished and a new one is about to begin. Sure I have resolutions floating around in my mind. The big question is if I'll commit to them and do anything tha I say I will. I sit here on Christmas day and I wish I could pick up the phone and call my dad. It has been almost two months since he passed away. It still stings and I want to cry when I think about him, but these tears dry and I go on. I still want my daddy. It is a need that I know will never leave me. It is an ache that will always be there. I can't replace him. When it comes to men and relationships, they can be replaced but a father can't. A child can't. A lover can, but no one can ever replace my dad.
I'm stalling and I need to get back to work. I always have more than I can handle to do, but I think I'm getting a grip on some of it. Today I'm going to do my math homework. It will be a start on it again. God please help me. I need a math fairy to come and land on my shoulder.
J