The story has been read and she's now in bed. Catherine's a great kid and is totally into this fantasy thing. Tonight I read her a story about Fairyland. This is the 5th time this week I've read it.
My daughter was made in Taiwan and has lived here for her entire four and a half years. Yes, I'm bragging, but I think it's pretty cool. Personally, after five years, my Chinese sucks while she's fluent and can even write different Chinese characters. She's smart. It must have been all the egg, mayo, and saurekraut sandwiches I ate when I was pregnant with her.
I want another child. I've been trying for the past three and a half years. One miscarriage, chlomid, injectible fertility drugs, and bitter Chinese medicine later, I'm still without another child. I come from a fertile lot. My mother had five! I guess I just can't believe I couldn't get pregnant. I'm a black woman for goodness sake. I've got these big ass birthin hips and I'm willing and waiting. But it just isn't happening. I have a few friends that are super fertile and it sort of pisses me off. I don't hate them or resent the fact that they can have a ton of kids, I just feel like I should get a few more. It's the whole Golden Egg, Willy Wonka thing! "I want a golden egg and I want it now!!!!" Everyone always tells me how lucky I am to have a daughter. I hate this shit. It's stupid and I resent when people say this. Like I forgot I have a healthy daughter. Oh, thank you for reminding me. Had you not mentioned it, I'm sure I would have forgotten.
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